Thankful Thoughts 9/10/18


Today I am thankful that I chose to continue living, and for all the wonderful things I would have missed if I had ended my life prematurely.

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. It seems that nearly everyone knows someone who has either attempted or ended their life by suicide, it is that prevalent in our society.

I have lost friends as young as fourteen to suicide, and friends who are over sixty. I have lost too many people that I loved, and have nearly lost several more. It makes my heart ache, not only for them seeing suicide as the only viable solution, but also for their families who must continue living with a hole in their hearts that will never heal.

I understand too well the feelings of anguish and desperation, the sense of hopelessness and despair. There have been more than a few times in my life when I wanted to die, when I wanted it to just be over.

The thing I didn’t know, didn’t believe despite what people told me, is that hopelessness is temporary; life changes in ways we can’t even imagine. And most importantly, we are never truly abandoned or alone, God is with us always.

No matter how difficult, how painful or how hopeless life feels at the moment, if you hang in there things will change. It will get better. There are good things waiting for you just around the corner where you cannot see.

Additionally, there are people who love you and need you… family, partners, children, friends. Maybe they haven’t told you or shown you lately how much you mean to them, maybe you are estranged. But believe me, there is someone, and maybe several, who will be shattered if you end your life.

When I am aware of someone emotionally struggling (although we aren’t always aware), I worry, I pray, I reach out in every way I can. I encourage them to get help. I may not be able to save them, but I have to try. I have to make sure they know I care. Knowing that someone cared made all the difference to me; it was the tiny spark of hope that gave me reason to continue on.

If I had chosen suicide I would not have had my children or lived to watch them grow, I would not have met Papa Bear or known what true love could be. I would not have seen amazingly beautiful places or made wonderful friends from all over the world. And most importantly I might never have learned how much God truly loves me.

I am so thankful that I didn’t give up. I took a chance at life. Please choose life too!


Author: Josie Two Shoes

I've been blogging off and on since August of 2006. I adopted the pen name Josie Two Shoes in 2007 as I began a new chapter of my life standing on my own two feet. Now I'm married to the man of my dreams; we live in dusty West Texas with a house full of furkids. I am an Aquarian by birth, and although I am past sixty and slightly frayed around the edges, my fascination with this thing called life continues. Faith, family, and friends are important to me; so are honesty, trust, tolerance, compassion and kindness. I'm pretty up front about most things, so if you want to know something more about me, just ask! :-) You can also reach me by email and find me at my Facebook page.

5 thoughts on “Thankful Thoughts 9/10/18”

    1. Thank you, Mimi! I appreciate your support so much! It was the most personal post I’ve ever written, But I feel it’s so important for us to tell our stories, so we can end the stigma. I have friends who needed to hear this, and they have. I feel blessed by the opportunity to share what I have learned along the way.

  1. Right now, I go through inpatient treatment again because of my depression. I am so glad I have a good home, a place where I am loved and welcome. And there are so many people who encourage me to go on and become better once more. The woman I share a room with still thinks her life is useless, and this is so sad to watch. I will tell her what you wrote, your words are so true and powerful.

    1. Hello Dearest Viola! So happy to see you here. I am glad to be back online and will catch up with your posts soon. I am glad you are in a safe place where you can work on recovery. Thank you for your kind comments on my words. ♥️ I am writing from the heart.

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