This is my seventh year of participation in the A to Z Challenge. My intent this year is to share a little bit about me each day… the good, the bad, and the ugly… so you can get to know “the woman behind the words” a little better!
I sit writing these last few posts today in my yellow writing room with it’s East facing window. Yellow is my other favorite color in addition to purple; yellow is the color of happiness and sunshine. Yellow roses are my favorite flowers. Bright yellow reminds me of smiley faces. 🙂
Yarn is another y-word I like. I taught myself to knit and crochet at a young age with needles, hooks, yarn, and instructions bought from our small town variety store. Back then only a couple kinds of yarn were widely available, but I loved working with colors to create useful objects. I also learned that the rhythm of knitting or crocheting is a great form of relaxation.
While I am not good at completing large projects, I have made a few afghans and many smaller things. I have a lap afghan in progress for Papa Bear per his request, and I’m using the most beautiful variegated yarn of blue and brown shades. It’s one of the new super-soft yarns and they are so fun to work with. My five furry “helpers” think yarn is great stuff too, and all my projects have a but of cat fur stitched in with love. 🙂
Papa Bear turns sixty-five in June, and I do the same eight months later. Wow, where did the years go? It seems like you wait so long as a child to become a grown-up, and then find that life is taken up with earning money and raising families and cleaning the house. Then one day the kids are gone, off on lives of their own, and you look around and the house is quiet and dusty and you realize that you’ve already lived 3/4 of your life!
Physically, I think forties are the best years, that’s when you began to come into your own identity and still have enough energy to do anything you want. At forty you feel like taking on things. At sixty you find yourself desiring more and more to sit back and let go. It really doesn’t seem possible that I’ve lived sixty years, the last ten of them with my beloved Papa Bear! I would like us both to live sixteen more… long enough to celebrate our 25th Anniversary together. It’s possible! I do not really want to live to be very old though, my grandma lived to be 97 years old, and Papa Bear has a great aunt who is now 99, but our parents died much younger, and perhaps we will too.
The years have a way of sneaking up on you, and one day you realize that according to the numbers you are “old”, but in your heart you still feel young and very much alive. I am so very thankful for these past ten years that God has given me, they have been filled with love and laughter, and if there were no more years to come it would still be enough.
A lot of people seem to get stuck on “yesterday“… what happened in the past, be it good or bad. They either can’t make peace with the not so good things that happened or they mourn what they had then but don’t have now.
It seems to me that time filters our memories, we remember the really bad or the really good and the rest tends to fade. Memory is important because it keeps us mindful of what we’ve learned and what we have to be thankful for, but it’s important to live in the present, not wrapped up in the memories or wounds of yesterday, and also not fearing what tomorrow may bring. I try hard to keep both the past and the future in perspective, since there is nothing I can do about either one.
Today I have power over… I can choose to make it a good day, and I can choose to do small things that might make it a good day for someone else too! While everything in my life may not be just perfect (and really, it never is) today is a good day and I am grateful for the opportunity to experience it. Forgive the hurts of yesterday and have faith that you will get through tomorrow just fine; after all, you’ve made it this far!
When you think of the years that have passed, does it make you happy or sad? Do you have some good memories to savor? Is it possible that you haven’t yet lived the very best day of your life?
Links to all of my 2018 A-Z Posts:
- A – Aquarian
- B – Blogging
- C – Cantankerous, Cats
- D – Divorce, Domestic Abuse
- E – Enabler, Encourager
- F – Fibromyalgia, Faith, Follow Through
- G – Germany
- H – Hearing Loss, Hair, Hope
- I – Introvert, Independence, Incarceration
- J – Josie Two Shoes
- K – Kids, Kindness
- L – Things I Like
- M – Middle child, Midwest, Moves
- N – New day, Noise, Never, New Mexico
- O – Ocean, Online Dating, Obesity
- P- Purple, People-pleaser, Promises, Peace
- Q – Quiet, Question, Quirky
- R – Rez Kids, Real, Realist, Regrets
- S – South Dakota, Satanism, Survivor
- T – Tattoos, Things, Thought for the Day
- U – Uncoordinated, Unwelcome, Understanding, Utopia
- V – Vibrant Colors, Veins, Vacations
- W – Writing, Work in Progress, Wrinkles, Wishes
- X – Exes, Excuses