This is my seventh year of participation in the A to Z Challenge. My intent this year is to share a little bit about me each day… the good, the bad, and the ugly… so you can get to know “the woman behind the words” a little better!
So my last A-Z post was written for “V” four days ago. I’ve left my tablet off since then to spend time relaxing with Papa Bear, since his vacation ends today and he has to return to work tomorrow. It was good to just go with the flow each day and ignore clocks and schedules. Of course this means that I have the final four A-Z posts to write with the next twenty four hours, but that shouldn’t be hard… once I get started it is easy to ramble on. 🙂
My first word for “W” is writing, or rather my love for it; that should be obvious. As far as I’m concerned, anyone who can string two sentences together is a writer, but that doesn’t necessarily mean they are a good one. While I’ve done a lot of writing over the years, I can’t claim to have perfected my skills. I tend to focus more on content than the craft of writing itself, which is fine unless I should someday decide follow through with the idea of writing and publishing my memoirs.
I’ve always been fascinated by words, and especially the written word. Written communication fits with my personality. While I enjoy conversations I also often find them exhausting. Writing can be shared over a period of time that the writer/reader find comfortable, there is no demand to “do it now” or for an hour or two. Of course if you write something good, it is always your hope that readers will find it interesting enough to want to read it through; we’ve all devoured books that grabbed our attention, coming up only for air and the occasional potty break! 🙂
Years ago, before the advent of home computers, most things were written in longhand, or typed out on typewriters if you were lucky enough to have access to one. I can recall penning letters to friends that ran on for twenty or more pages, and I can’t even guess how many pages some of my emails might turn out to be if they were printed.
Even if I don’t have a concrete idea or plan in place when I sit down to write, once I begin the words flow freely, and I could go on, and on, and on… as you’ve probably noted during the A-Z. Perhaps it equates to much said about nothing, but it does reflect what transpires within my brain… and often the path is a bit convoluted and branches off in unexpected directions. If you’ve ever had a conversation with me, you’ll know that my train of thought tends to derail with regularity, so it an be an “interesting” ride. Most often when I am writing or conversing about something, several other things are playing in my head! I apologize for the times that I am hard to follow, but this is who I am.
And on that note, I want to add that what I am is a work in progress. Although I am aging, I will never achieve perfection; that is not my goal or purpose. If I have gained any wisdom it in life it is through trial and error… lots of error, but I have learned a little bit about life along the way, and I think I’ve made some progress in becoming who I was intended to be. I tend to go with the theory that we don’t add things to become, but rather we take away what no longer serves us to become what we were created to be. While God clearly isn’t finished with me yet, He hasn’t given up on me either, and I will remain a work in progress until I breathe my final breath.
On the topic of aging, I have another “w-word” to share… wrinkles. The truth is that at sixty-four I really don’t have all that many wrinkles, maybe because I haven’t smoked, and haven’t been a sun worshipper since I was in my twenties, or maybe because of genetics and a little extra cushioning to pad my skin. 🙂 While my skin is now a bit creepy crepey as collogen diminishes, I don’t have crows feet or creases around my mouth yet, so I can still look in the mirror and feel like I’m holding my own, even if my eyelids droop a little in the corners, gravity has taken a toll, and my upper arms have developed batwings. The truth is that I am ok with aging as far as appearance goes, it is the natural order of our life cycle. The only thing I sometimes struggle with is when it comes to things I can no longer do physically that I could when I was younger. I miss never thinking about how much something might hurt, or how sore I will be tomorrow if I attempt it.
One more thought for “W” before I close… Wishes! I suppose we all have a few things we wish for in life, some possible and some unlikely to happen, but wishes are tied up in hope and hope is good! It gives us a reason to go on when life is difficult.
While vacationing on Galveston Island this past week I found myself wishing so hard that we could live there; I love it so much, and it is where my heart feels most at home. Yet I know this is unlikely. I was also wishing that Papa Bear could soon be free from working, at least full time, and just maybe there will be a way to make this happen financially in the next year or two if God so wills.
Then my heart asked me which one was more important, if I could have of those two wishes, but not the other, which one would I choose… and I realized that setting Papa Bear free is far more important than where we live, whenever he is with me I am at home. So that is what I wish for… but more importantly, that is what I pray for.
Have you always enjoyed writing? Do you have wrinkles? What is your biggest wish?
Links to all of my 2018 A-Z Posts:
- A – Aquarian
- B – Blogging
- C – Cantankerous, Cats
- D – Divorce, Domestic Abuse
- E – Enabler, Encourager
- F – Fibromyalgia, Faith, Follow Through
- G – Germany
- H – Hearing Loss, Hair, Hope
- I – Introvert, Independence, Incarceration
- J – Josie Two Shoes
- K – Kids, Kindness
- L – Things I Like
- M – Middle child, Midwest, Moves
- N – New day, Noise, Never, New Mexico
- O – Ocean, Online Dating, Obesity
- P- Purple, People-pleaser, Promises, Peace
- Q – Quiet, Question, Quirky
- R – Rez Kids, Real, Realist, Regrets
- S – South Dakota, Satanism, Survivor
- T – Tattoos, Things, Thought for the Day
- U – Uncoordinated, Unwelcome, Understanding, Utopia
- V – Vibrant Colors, Veins, Vacations